Jennifer Lawrence

I am really on the fence with her, I think she's really hot but at the same time I don't.

Same thing with Jessica Alba.

Fake tits are gross.

If you're a woman and you feel uncomfortable with small tits, or want bigger tits; know this.

Fake tits are ugly and make you less desirable. 
If a guy knows you have fake tits, you are better off with small ones.  Take it from a desperate guy.

Star date, December 7th.

I probably failed with the 'Trek reference.  But I digress.

Living with depression, social-phobia and severe anxiety really kicks you in the ass. But I'm making some effort to get myself out of this slump.  The slump that has lasted for the better part of the past decade.  6 months from turning 20, have yet to have a really good thing happen in my life.  I think the best things to happen for me are what I've done in games.  Pretty much it.

Hard to be positive when everything is negative, but I suppose it could be worse.  Could be homeless, could be starving (although that could be a plus, need to lose weight,) or the internet could be down.

Depression and living with it.

My depression is pretty severe, I cope with it the best I can yet I have a huge barrier blocking me from ever really recovering and putting it all behind me. 

My depression doesn't have a direct cause that I have deciphered yet, it's a complex puzzle that I have an idea of where its roots lie but I still have no idea.  However, my depression, among other ailments, is blocking me from ever having a career. Not having a career, or even a job at that, is also causing me some depression, as well as anxiety.

It's a real troubling experience, it could be a hell of a lot worse but that's like saying would you rather be shot in the foot, or in the leg. 

Still though, medicine and therapy doesn't help. I just have to find my own way until something else comes up.

Game Tester (Quality Assurance)

I always wanted to be a game tester, I know it's not all that it's cracked up to be.  It's repetitive, boring and doesn't involve playing games more as it involves you grinding through the same levels over and over and over again until you get all the kinks worked/figured out and prepare to get the next work load over and done with.

Kind of like World of Warcraft, or any other big name MMO for that matter.

I still wouldn't mind at least trying it, but the problem is I cannot just move to Edmonton (for example) and get a job at Bioware.  I can't just get an Alpha sent to me either, where I can test it and do my work at home.  Nope, not happening.

Unless if a game developer opened up right where I live, I'm up shit creek without a paddle, unless if I just so happen to be fortunate enough to have a bigwig read this blog, throw me a bone and then hand me the job on a silver platter.

I'm not hinting at anything.  Ahem.